Honestly, I'm really just fucking tired of finding a way of dropping an egg three metres without it breaking. Someone said that you need to drop it up your ass, but by myself, that would be less than three metres. And I don't have someone willing to drop an egg on my ass from three metres above. There MUST be an another way to drop an egg three metres without it breaking.
How desperate are you? Do you seek for the word that your daddo will never say to you? Perhaps because you want to surround yourself with a lot of superficialities Sadness and disgust Shame and hatred That's why you won't hear it
Do you remember the time when you were in the room? Surrounded by strangers who told you everything is going to be okay, nothing is going to change? Do you remember the lies? Are you able to remember every fuzzy shadow that was waiting to be in the delay, even next to family photos? Are you still confused by what happened? There's no more fear Deafs don't know what the apologies sound like Mute people never had the need to say it The blind will believe that the world is a dark cage when you do not show them the light Why do you think the word functional would describe you?
Are you starting to remember all those times I was there? That smell that's now a relief for you? Before, you could smell it in the breath of every cry directed at you What was she doing? What did you expect her to do? You should feel emasculated Every time you change Every time you have to try to remember a new face But wasn't it something sacred? Now you see it You stayed in those years Looking for something that will console you Now you console yourself
You have nothing to be proud of Just a bunch of behaviors you wanted to replicate An individual who pales in comparison to his size That's why you have to repeat the words Copy the images Obey What-They-Say Forcing yourself to follow what others expect of you That's why you're looking for something that makes you feel it Why do you repeat your father's footsteps? Who was he? To your mother he was nobody And that's how she sees you