I Want To Know …
…Do you love me?

There is a person that I miss with my whole heart…
She is like a sister to me…
Let's call her Sarah

Around 3 or 4 years ago we met at hers…
We didn't talk at the start but slowly started to build up a conversation
We realised that we can be a good friends
And we did become
There was some silence between us for a while
But then we met again
After that we talked every day!
Me and Sarah were unseperable!
Two years ago I was living with her for two weeks.
Those two weeks were the best ever!
And they still are…
We both did such many things together!
We even made sushi with a ton of wasabi in it and of course… ate it :'D
We named a lake right next to her house — Oļegs
It was so hurtful for me to leave her… but I had to… sadly
We were talking almost every day like always
At my 16th birthday… I was quite sick…
She didn't care that I was sick and she visited me!
I was so happy that she was with me on that day!
Even if she was the only guest that I had on that day…
I didn't care as long as she was with me
Last year I was at her graduation day
I was so proud of her!
Don't get me wrong, I still am
But when I saw her there, I felt like a proud mom :'D
We met one more time after the graduation and it was the last time…
I would have met her again but… I chose to stay home…
I was so afraid that she would be mad at me because I promised that I will come…
I cut contact with her…
I still feel guilty about it…

I wish I can meet her again
I really do
And if you read this dear…
I miss you…
so much…

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