Welcome to 2021 where nothings better and the days merge into one ! Covid hasnt gone anywhere and its really starting to take its dump truck ass toll on me. As someone whos ND i really thought being isolated would be fun, no worrying about social cues no overthinking conversations no awkward moments no loud outside spaces ! Turns out i forgot that im a really touchy person and i like to be held. Yeah being touch starved and generally lonely is something i forgot im not invincible to. I, thankfully, have found some small ways to get by. Sleep. Animal crossing. Food. More sleep. Call friends. More food. Spend time with cats. Watch drama vids. most recently ive been finding myself bingeing dog grooming vids and carpet cleaning vids ! sure some of these things are basic everyday things but honestly with how shitty you can start to treat urself when depressed, it feels really nice to just spend time taking care of urself. Sadly i dont really do that as much as i should. ive been really stressed recently and go from sleeping all day to not sleeping for two. theres been a lot of friend drama and i recently lost a friend just as 2021 started. its also coming up to the anniversary of my cats murder. 2021 hasnt been really the nicest of years so far but im gonna start doing more healthier things to help cope. ive recently started a mini journal on my phone about my thoughts on things that i dont dare share to ppl. ive started recording my health issues and my days when i was at tafe so its easier to talk about my day. i spend two days repairing my skin and hair and then the 3rd days shower and fresh air. doin my darndest to keep myself 100 but sometimes i slip. its really hard for me to draw recently as im really unmotivated and generally lacking energy, but i wanted to pump something out just as a personal treat to myself, what better way than to do a vent piece!

i hope i get to drawing more soon as i wanna reopen my commissions again as moneys tough during quarantine. im sorry if i dont post a lot on here but i assure you im active!
take care of yourself.