Originally posted on: May 11, 2020, 8:51 PM UTC

> Breakdown
> After 3 whole weeks of not drawing I kind of snapped and the worst part is that my hands hardly got any better at all :| (Blank Stare). Plus, all primary doctors at the office I usually go to are booked up until July [AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA](https://www.deviantart.com/mrkat7214/art/AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-839592893). There is a silver lining, though. My dad got me some compression gloves so we’ll see if they help and I can always go back to urgent care this week (hopefully they won’t just rush through me like last time ☹️).
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> There’s another thing that I have to say too. I have been not doing so well in college and one of the reasons being is that I basically lost all desire for it. Usually when I work on something, like an 7 page essay, I usually get it done in a day or two but that’s when I had the support of other students and the professor in the classroom (and my competitive nature to impress the professor) but since I have been online it just feels like I’m doing work for a bunch of robots. It just doesn’t feel real to me. When I learned that the summer/fall semester classes are going to be online and that was the final straw for me. I know I won’t be able to pull through and after talking with my parents I decided I will drop out from college. I can always go back to school but right now is just not a time for me due to what I said and some other factors I don’t wish to discuss.
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> I’m planning on getting a part time job and work on some art skills I know I’m lacking in (like people, animals, and backgrounds). Plus, maybe work on getting my state ID and driver’s license finally 😅.
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