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Originally posted on: December 6, 2019, 7:55 PM UTC
> sure is quiet around here
> vent; ignore if you dislike them
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> i sure did underestimate the feeling of being ignored, or just not… appreciated at all?? honestly it's one of the most embarrassing things for me. All the things i do for people, and i still end up not being any different from a nobody. People are so extremely selfish nowadays. Once they've found their place, they wouldn't bat an eye on those in need, especially for those who really need at least a little bit of interaction in their lives , such as myself. I'm already extremely depressed as it is, and most of the time,, i don't even feeling like talking to anyone which is extremely unhealthy for someone who's usually extremely talkative and who used to enjoy the company of someone, especially when i'm not feeling at my best. Not to mention i also like to comfort other people, despite me not being the best at it, but at least i try, right?
> I've just become so isolated that i don't even know how to communicate with someone without it being extremely awkward,, or the conversations just never go anywhere? I always have to think so deeply on what to say, will i offend / make them annoyed with my sense of humor?, do they mind swearing?? will i say something extremely cringy or something that just doesn't make any sense??? I just never know what to respond and it gets so extremely frustrating,. you get my point. I'm usually never the one to text first either, so :/ If i gotta be honest, it just feels like another chore instead
> I hate to admit it, but i'm just… so jealous and envious of other people it's insane. I don't like being like that, but i honestly cannot control it. Especially if it's someone i 'butt kiss' constantly, and they put their attention on someone else who doesn't. I guess some people find their fans extremely annoying huh? That's all i get out of it. You honestly never get anything out of praising someone, especially if their fame has gotten to their head.. or .. i don't even know anymore
> i just want someone to like me, that's all
> but i never really get a chance, do i
> sure is quiet around here
> vent; ignore if you dislike them
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> well
> i sure did underestimate the feeling of being ignored, or just not… appreciated at all?? honestly it's one of the most embarrassing things for me. All the things i do for people, and i still end up not being any different from a nobody. People are so extremely selfish nowadays. Once they've found their place, they wouldn't bat an eye on those in need, especially for those who really need at least a little bit of interaction in their lives , such as myself. I'm already extremely depressed as it is, and most of the time,, i don't even feeling like talking to anyone which is extremely unhealthy for someone who's usually extremely talkative and who used to enjoy the company of someone, especially when i'm not feeling at my best. Not to mention i also like to comfort other people, despite me not being the best at it, but at least i try, right?
> I've just become so isolated that i don't even know how to communicate with someone without it being extremely awkward,, or the conversations just never go anywhere? I always have to think so deeply on what to say, will i offend / make them annoyed with my sense of humor?, do they mind swearing?? will i say something extremely cringy or something that just doesn't make any sense??? I just never know what to respond and it gets so extremely frustrating,. you get my point. I'm usually never the one to text first either, so :/ If i gotta be honest, it just feels like another chore instead
> I hate to admit it, but i'm just… so jealous and envious of other people it's insane. I don't like being like that, but i honestly cannot control it. Especially if it's someone i 'butt kiss' constantly, and they put their attention on someone else who doesn't. I guess some people find their fans extremely annoying huh? That's all i get out of it. You honestly never get anything out of praising someone, especially if their fame has gotten to their head.. or .. i don't even know anymore
> i just want someone to like me, that's all
> but i never really get a chance, do i
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