Originally posted on: January 10, 2018 at 6:38 AM UTC
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> You know, my folks once told me high school will get better as the years go by.
> Well, I don't know where I'm going with this.
> I'm not doing so well.
> I've been feeling down, ever since I started my Junior year, if not earlier.
> Maybe it's because I'm becoming more and more lazy and everything seems too much for my capability.
> Maybe it's because the winter weather is affecting my mood.
> Maybe it's because the stress of school and the pressure of planning my future and career has started to weigh me down, causing things to get increasingly overwhelming.
> Maybe it's because I'm being constantly demotivated due to having huge numbers yet little activity from both my watchers and myself.
> Either way, I couldn't ignore it any longer.
> I guess I've just accepted that I won't be a big name in any community on the Internet, that I'll forever be an "unrecognized talent" running on rotting accounts.
> That I'll just be nobody special.
> And, in a way, I guess I really am not.
> My drawing and crafting skills?
> Those are all I have now, have had since I was a kid, and most likely continue to have until the day I die.
> I'm just a teen doing something slightly advanced with things I did when I was little.
> Nothing special.
> The only time I ever feel relaxed and not the urge to cry, is when I'm asleep.