What shakes me the most though is how the woman who hit me claims i'm the 1 at fault; i'm the 1 who caused the accident & that i should be the 1 who pays for everything when she's throwin my name around town like a bag of hot dog when i was more worried about her health than my own…. I'm gonna see a lawyer in a video call tomorrow to help me with the dispute since i'd been dealin with both sides of the insurance companies when i shouldn't be dealin with anything at the moment & tryin to take it easy & get better, but with all the stress & even just a tidbit of the mention of the whole thing sends me into a pit of despair, i still have to deal with it because i've nowhere to just go & relax…. My bedroom's still part of the place that deals with paperwork, my fiancé has been talked to by his family almost every day about it & talks to me about it right away…. i appreciate bein kept in the loop & all, but i need a day to just stop thinkin about it all….
I've been awaitin the next day i go to the therapist because i'm lookin like a ceramic vase that's been dropped into so many pieces & glued back together that i'm not sure if the right pieces are even in the right place anymore…. Wish me luck on the lawyer business; i'm hopin the guy i talk to with the father-in-law is gonna be the right choice & helps me get a replacement vehicle / pay off his parents from the truck we lost so i can get back to work with the coworkers i appreciate in worryin about me <:3
I just worry that the women who are against me right now don't keep comin to drive thru & try to hunt me down like they've been doing apparently so i don't have to fear going to work or comin home from work on a daily basis….