“Come on ‘lil seedlin'…ya can’t give up on me! This harvest has gotta be better than the last, its just gotta be…"
I mentioned in my Applejack HC that AJ has OCD and trauma surrounding the sudden death of her parents, which happened after a bad harvest season for the family. AJ associated a bad crop with death and felt an obsessive need to prevent the family from going through a bad season again. She felt like something terrible would happen, and the only way to get rid of that feeling was through obsessive, compulsive farmwork. It usually worked alright, her family did have a lot of work to go around, and the work kept her mind off her grief and sadness. But when she failed, it was unbearable. All the feelings she worked so hard to push down and keep away came crashing down on her and she couldn't take it. When everything became too much Applejack felt like she couldn't be useful to her family and she ran away to the city, resulting in her short stint in Manehatten with her Auntie Orange. But the city didn't help her sadness and anxiety, and in some ways being in the new place felt worse. At the farm, she may have been sad, but at least she felt something. Now every day she felt herself feeling more numb and detached. Her aunt all but forced her back home, and when she got back to the farm she broke down in her grandmother's embrace. Granny Smith held her and promised her she was ok now, that everything was going to be ok.

And eventually, it was.


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I HAVEN'T POSTED HERE IN LIKE A MONTH!! I'm so sorry, these things just get away from me. I have a bunch of stuff hoarded on my patreon I'll work on getting out soon but for now, a little something close to my heart…I struggle with OCD myself and imagining Applejack with it is very comforting to me sometimes, as corny as that sounds. It's hard for me to talk about myself but idk yea. hope you enjoy my little song and dance