It's been 2 months since the princess stallion put on her first dress and today she understands that it's no longer necessary to lie or make excuses. Even though the show is only 2 weeks away, I already know that my life will never be the same as before. It took me a while to figure it out, but now I know I love it all.
Being treated like a princess, wearing pretty dresses, putting on makeup, admiring my growing collection of dresses every week….
I know now that I couldn't do without any of that. I simply accepted the mare that is inside me and that screams with all her being that she needs to exist. The benevolence of the group, and especially of Brown Hooves, helped to give birth to this new Velvet, more confident, more sure of herself and able to fully assume her femininity.
Of course, this path is far from easy. There will always be old, closed-minded ponies who say that I should be ashamed of cross-dressing. But life is far too short to worry about the outdated and backward ideas of a few onlookers. I know there will always be people who make me feel bad about myself, but I know there are even more who will support me and help me become the princess I want to be now, whether it's on stage or in everyday life.
Brown used to talk to me about becoming a symbol, about showing the way to all those stallions and mares who want to go a different way. To be honest, I don't pretend to be something that important, I just want to live my way.
As for Golden Spoon… well, he's been particularly attentive lately. Well, caring to him means not being a macho, indelicate pony who treats others as inferior.
However, that doesn't stop me from enjoying his new attitude. I even find him quite adorable at times… like when he insists that we don't kiss in rehearsal, wanting to save that "first kiss" for the big premiere.
I didn't know he could be so romantic, unless it was his last attempt to humiliate me. But considering all I've done and been through, I don't think a simple kiss will change much.
I've already talked to Brown about my new approach to my title of stud princess and… I don't think I've ever seen anyone so excited. She even managed to get us two tickets to this year's Grand Galloping Gala. She says it's her way of congratulating me and helping Princess Velvet take her first steps on the road to glory. I don't know where this is going to go, but I have a feeling I shouldn't have to be an extra on stage anymore.
Anyway, I'm ready to go out and party! Who knows, if I do well, maybe I won't go home alone tonight? Hopefully my fan will finally reveal himself? Yikes, if this keeps up I'll end up dreaming that my Prince Charming will show up, I guess Brown isn't the only one who's a little overly enthusiastic.
No matter what happens tonight, or tomorrow, or in two weeks, from now on I promise myself that I will never again deny myself princess dreams…